Change

I am hearing this one again… that I don’t let people in, in fact, I never let anyone get close and that I draw a “do not cross” boundary around me, and that I am rigid and need to change. It always surprises me to get this sort of view from close friends. I don’t understand “rigid”. I confess that I do maintain “fortifications”. I involuntarily keep everyone at a distance. It might show that I am egotist and self-centered but it has kept me out of harm's way and helped me remain attentive to things that I should remain attentive to. Many times. It has helped me avoid pointless hurting and yearning for people who aren't worth yearning for. I believe it has given me the sense of judgment for not depending upon wrong people. I have remained sensible because of detachment. It is strange but I have had greater advantage in my life by putting up barriers.Right now, the kind of phase I am in, I see no reason to alter myself… least of all to put down barriers.